this is a track (can never bring myself to use the word “composition” though that is exactly what this is) i’ve been working on for quite a while .. it’s off an album that i’ve been wanting to release for over 365 days now, i just can’t bring myself to put it up for free download. dignity means more to me than exposure; for the moment at least – it waxes and wanes. (if anyone’s curious about my stance on free downloads- ask me)
the title, “such a thing a home”, comes from something i wrote a few years ago when living in London. Coupled with the fact I’d been working on this track on and off over what i’d class as some of the most transitional and (emo alert) seemingly “home-less” moments of my life – i just thought the name worked. so these were the words, they’ve remained unseen until now. they don’t define me in the way they once did:
When i was a boy the universe was mine to roam – everything was new; no boundaries, no phobias,
just puddles and crayons waiting for me to splash and scribble over the person that I’d be.
Someday I might meet the things in life I’ve feared the most and on that day I’ll say –
“please don’t leave. you’re all I have to make me feel alive now I’ve let everything I once loved just waste away.”
or someday I might go- back to the park behind my house, and on that day I’ll sit on the bench beside the lake
and watch the birds as they land on the water, wondering why I’ve missed this for so many years.
now i’m still a boy- but I don’t want the universe. A little box would do if i could live in it with you-
just listening to the world pass by our window wondering how we could call such a thing a home.. such a thing a “home”…
[so i finally got round to recording this on video the other day at a friend’s house.. this was the first time i’d sat at a piano since my last EP “together” was recorded back in April (an occasion on which i had also not played the piano for over 3 months.. worrying trend emerging) . If you think you can hear some muffled swearing at the start of the video that’s because you can – i was getting increasingly annoyed at not being able to remember my own music and subsequently messing up every take. apart from this one]